i really don't know what this prayer wall thing is for.. but i figure i could write my prayers out and expand my mind on here.it seems everytime i talk to God my life gets worse. now dont get me wrong, i am a VERY strong believer and all but it's like.. i ask Him to help me throughout my life, and nothing good ever comes my way. in the past 5 months i've had a bad, bad breakup, surgery, five deaths... and not to mention a horrible basketball season. i feel as if i'm getting ripped off. i'm one of the nicest people ever, i feel guilty in everything i do whether it's saying "oh my god!" or cheating on a test.. even yelling at my dog makes me feel terrible. i think because i have such a good conscience i'm really hard on myself. i have no confidence whatsoever... i dont know why though.. im good at everything i do.. school, basketball, praying, coaching, piano, video games... it just seems as if im missing the big picture. i cant find anything to help me STAY happy. i pray and pray for God to send me a sign and i keep getting tragedies. maybe im being too selfish. i have everything a teenage girl could want, but why am i so sad?an ex boyfriend of mine says im suffering from bi-polar depression and i should get help. i dont need help, i just pray so hard every night i end up crying..i pray freaking everywhere! i pray at school, i talk to God when im driving, i even pray when im shooting my free throws.. come on PLEASE what am i guna do? what am i doing wrong?i figure God has a plan and i shouldn't try to avoid it.maybe im due for a miracle. maybe im a little more than useless.i dont want to think about death anymore..